W3Y'st'd Days

Thursday, February 05, 2004

devotions: job 32-38

I spent the next 30 minutes reading through Job 32-38.

I was just reminded about God's power and strength. About how He comes and goes as He pleases and does whatever he wishes. I felt as if God was huge and massive and all I was was this small little thing at his mercy. It was the first time I truly felt like I feared Him.

Not fear in the sense that I'm afraid of what He's going to do to me, but fear in the sense that He does have this emmense power that I just don't understand. And that He chooses to not only stave His anger towards my sin, but He goes so far to sacrifice His Son for me. It's that combination of fear, but it's okay because He loves you, that just brought so much assurance.

I realized that my whole job seeking was with the wrong mentality. For me, a job is just money. Money is just a means to an end. Money is an enabler. It allows me to eat, to live comfortably, and to do the things that I enjoy to do. But money is so much more than that. Money isn't just selfish enjoyment, it can also be used to build relationships. It can be used to help people. All this time, I knew this, but I didn't want my money to be used that way. My tithe was His, and the rest was mine. But that's not how it works. All of it is His. We're just hear to try and manage it.

In the same vain, a Job isn't just for money. A job is an opportunity for God to do something with my life. Who knows what kind of impact I can make in the world. Granted, the things that I would be doing aren't earth shattering, but the relationships that would be forged have eternal ramifications. I've been so narrow sited and so selfish. God can be glorified so much more. He can use me so much more.

So I finally prayed the prayer that I should've been praying this whole time. That He would just use me. That He would be glorified. That no matter what happens, my heart would beat with his. And no matter what happens, whether I get this job or any job, I will continue to praise Him for who He is.