Evaluating My Life with Securinex

I don't know how likely I am to get this position with Securinex. But let me try and evaluate where my life would be if I got an offer and I accepted it.

Working at a startup, it would require me to work a lot more ours. Assuming I wake up and leave around the same time I do now, I'd be at work around 8:30. Most likely, I would want to minimize the amount of time that I worked on weekends so I can go to church and do church related activities; I'd end up working till 6:30-7. That's about 10-10.5 hours. That ends up being around 50-52.5 hours a week. Now, granted, I may or may not put in that time, but my guess, is that it's about accurate.

Now with such a huge time committment, what does that mean for WWF (formerly, YG) and CG.Drama?

Well, WWF.SG (YG small groups) are pretty much on autopilot. Pastor Tim does a great job of providing materials for the groups; much thanks to him. We're also taking a more laid back approach, letting the kids lead themselves more and for us to act more like coaches or facilitators than leaders.

As for CG.Drama, it would mean that I would have to take a more hands off approaching to leading the team. I wouldn't be able to write anymore as I would have no time to do that. I would be able to prepare less and do less for the team on my own. All this entails that the kids are going to have to step up when it comes to writing. This shouldn't be a big deal as we only have one Sunday performance left before we prepare for BN'05. As for BN'05, the scripts are being worked on by the kids. I've given them deadlines with enough time for review and edit. What's really going to be difficult is when we get into crunch time. I don't know how much time I'll have available to give to the team.

This is all from a perspective that I need some time for myself as well. Especially after such a long day, it will mean that I'm tired and don't want to do much in the evenings.

There's the short term effects.

What about mid term effects?

Originally, I was planning on going to graduate school to get my MBA. Now, I didn't really have a reason to get my MBA other than I didn't know what else to do. If I started working at Securinex, I probably wouldn't have the time to take off to complete a higher level degree. With a job like this, I may not even need it.

No graduate school opens up other opportunities. I would be able to start a family earlier which means possibly moving up the time table to get married. Originally, I wanted to concentrate on the things at hand so I could be the most effective at them. I didn't want to have to work, go to school, and manage a marriage all at the same time. Doing any one of those things is a big enough headache as it is.

It is also uncertain how much I would have to work in 2-3 years. I'm sure I would still have to work, but it probably won't be as much or as hard as the first 2 years. What this means is that marriage would be moved up one year. I still always have the chance of going to school later, so there is no rush in that.

Long term evaluations become a lot trickier. Right now, there are two divergent paths. One is a high speed boost for my career, the other is slow. Both of which are still uncertain. Even though I've only been at UBS for 10 months, I can already feel that I'm not made for corporate structures. There's just too much red tape and management to deal with. This isn't to say that there aren't opportunities and benefits of a large corporation. There is an amount of stability and security not afforded by startups.

I had planned on going into teaching several years down the line, around when I was 38 or 40. Granted, this is a long time down the road, but it is something that I have an interest in doing.

Financially, it is uncertain where working at Securinex will bring me. There was no talk of compensation so I don't know what sort of salary I would be receiving. At the same time, since it is a startup, there is the opportunity for finacial success through stock. Then again, that is uncertain because it is so highly dependant on the success of the company which is not necessarily dependant on how hard I work. And again, the results would be several years down the line.

In the end, I see this as an opportunity of a life time. To do what I've sort of always wanted to do since 7th grade is huge. Sure, I would have to make sacrifices, but I think it's worth it. Never have I been given such an opportunity to learn and to grow. Not only professionally, but personally as well. Now, that, is exciting.

If I were to receive an offer today, I would jump on it. There would be no hesitation what-so-ever.

Keep me in your prayers, as all this is in God's hands now.