Mission Impossible

yesterday was amazing. we've been practicing for the mission impossible mim all week now and before we actually start w/ a little sg time and some worship. and normally, i'm so chatty and talky w/ the Lord. just constantly running off at the mouth to Him. instead, i just sat back and was still in the presence. oh man, it was amazing! i started out prostrate, then i sat up. as i was sitting there, i just felt this tingling run over my body and i could see like this throne and this figure before me. it wasn't like a clear vision, but more like the idea and concept of it. as i sat there in front of it, i just started weeping. i don't even know why, but i just fell to my face w/ tears and snot dripping from my face. i knew right then that the Lord had touched me and i was weeping because i don't deserve it, i'm not worthy to be in his presence. i finally understood what isiah felt.

i've also been drawn in for another year of youth ministry. just over the last few days, i've just been hit w/ so many ideas, so many thoughts. i knew that i couldn't escape them because i just loved them too much. i'm really excited and a lil scared for this comming year. one part of me is filled w/ hope because of all the possibilities and all of what the Lord can do. i'm also afraid because a lot of these are radical ideas, new ideas and they'r untested and untried.

so its just a matter of leaving it up to the Lord and letting Him move. as long as we're submitted to Him, He will do great things.