Stupid DBMS

spent most of the day working on the stupid manual for dbms. it got to the point where i couldn't type anymore, my head was just so dead and out of it.

well, here's my third blog. some people will say that i write to much. and i say to them, they don't write enough. like i was talking to roddd just now, and he made an interesting point. most people who do stuph like this have nothing good to say. i was different because i do write about stuff, but i guess this would count as not stuff. not that it really matters, nor does it say anything about me. i guess i'm just conforming to the rest of the world.

after the stupid dbms (which i still have yet to finish), i sat and watched zoolander on the rutgers channel. such a stupid movie, and yet so funny. it was a good release of my stress and my writers block at the time. i don't know what it is about stuid movies that are so much fun to wathc. is it because it reqiures no brain power what so ever?

God has really been doing something in me. i was never as organized as i am now. i spent about an hour after NT typing out emails to various fellowships. and then, i spent the rest of the day replying to them. it's kinda scary knowing that you're growing up. i don't want to say that i'm becoming a man, because i don't think i ever really will, but it's a start.

i'm still at a loss for what i want to do next year. after that youth specialties thing, i really want to continue working with the youth. but at the same time, i want to work with ccf, since i do live down here. i just don't know where God wants me to be. gerald says that yg will be there when i graduate, which is true. but i don't want to look at it that way. he also told me to go where i was needed. the problem is, i don't know where i'm needed. and even if i did, it'd probably be some human perspective or insight.

i'm going to try to keep these a little shorter than my other stuff. i don't want to be caught up in forcing myself to constantly update and what not.

Christ's Child
-WeY