Square Peg in Round Circle

Memorial Retreat is coming up and for the first time, I won't be attending the youth program. As a youth worker, I feel a partial obligation to hang out with the youth kids and participate with them. But over the years, I've begun to feel a longing for people in my own age bracket. I still love the kids and plan on continuing youth work, but I need fellowship with people that are in similar position as I am.

I think this is why I never realy got plugged in to the whole 4W program. I tried it out for a good few months, but it never clicked with me. It might have been because I was the youngest one in the group. When I went to the men's small group, it was a lot better because most of us still had that youthful mentality. Even that doesn't compare to the NYAF (New Young Adult Fellowship).

I usually swing over there after Youth Group on Friday nights. I would hang out, but the youth don't really do anything after 10. Sometimes, they'll go out to Applebee's or something. In that case, I'll go out to hang and chill. Without the college kids back, most kids go home.

It's hard finding a place where you can feel like you are a part of something. When you are a leader, you don't feel like you're a part of anything because there is so much responsibility. You're looking at it from a different perspective so you don't really get to enjoy it. You're also not on the same level as the members which makes it difficult to bond with them like everyone else. That's why even leaders need fellowship and their own small group.